A Bug's Life

Read This If You Want to Improve Your Self-Worth

2008-08-18T17:35:13Z

I learned this earlier during one of our discussions in our business group:

1. List down all achievements you have starting from the day you were born until now... as many achievements that you can remember as possible.
2. For each achievement, remember the emotions you felt while you are receiving or experiencing that achievement.

Once you've done both numbers, read all your achievements BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP and AFTER WAKING UP. While reading each of your achievements, feel as if it's again happening to you. Feel like you're just receiving or experiencing that achievement for the very first time. Feel and savor the moment. Let your imagination run through you. Feel the excitement and happiness.

Notice that when you focus on positive things in life, you will be happy and grateful. You will feel light and excited. Your energy goes high. And when you're on a happy and joyful state, not only will you increase your self-worth, everything will go towards what you wanted at that moment. Even if you experience pain or fear or low self-esteem, this exercise will remind you that you are a great person and no one will stop you from achieving great things in life. :)

Just try it for the next three weeks and you'll see the difference.

Happy Birthday, Mae! (and other stuff)

2008-08-18T17:17:44Z

Happy birthday Mae! Hope you celebrated your birthday well, especially that there was no work today. I wish you all the best in everything you do. I hope I can also get a "libre" from you when we meet, even if you're now working in Makati. Hehehe.. Take care and God bless! =)

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The three-day weekend is over... for now. Another three-day weekend is coming. Yey! :)

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I have been saving some images from the Internet into my computer to add images for my dream book (the list of goals I wanted to achieve is found at an early post in my blog). I have two existing dream books right now, one is in my Multiply (http://paulgabion.multiply.com), and another is in a scrapbook. This is to give me direction why I am working at the office and in my business. In addition, since dreams are not powerful without putting a price tag and a date when it can be fulfilled, I will be adding the price and the date of the dream I want to get (part of the B.S.M.A.R.T. formula).

However, there is one folder in my PC that I can't upload (yet) in Multiply, for the sake of privacy... but I am creating a future that it will happen, and I will make that happen. :)

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A quote from the song "The Fires":

The fires of HOPE are burning...
The fires of FAITH go rising...
Tonight I SEE MY DREAMS LIGHT UP THE SKY!
The fires of COURAGE fill me...
The fires of POWER lift me...
Tonight I BREAK ALL BARRIERS AND FLY!!!

It Begins With Me

2008-08-17T09:26:29Z

After at least a year of not hearing any songs from the "Soaring to Nu Heights" album, I again heard them last Saturday. And one of the songs that really inspires me is the song "It Begins With Me." The message of the song is that whatever you do in life begins with you. Whether you're going up or down, it always come from you. You are the source of what is currently doing in your life. So if you wish to change for the better, the first step you should take starts with you.

The song is in my playlist at my multiply account (http://paulgabion.multiply.com), either at the homepage part or the "Music" link.

Here's the lyrics of the song:

It Begins With Me

Since each day, I've so little time
The time I have doesn't seem mine
So much to do, so little gets done
This is going nowhere keeps me on the run

Is there something that I can do?
A new eyes I begin to see
New voice that's burning inside my heart
I hear it now, "it begins with me."

Each minute I save (it begins with me)
Each change I make (it begins with me)
Each mountain I climb (it begins with me)
The first step I'll take, it begins with me.

The day grows bright with each new road
I see my future as my vision grows
So much to do and it's getting done
Can't wait til tomorrow to get up and run (yeah)

Now there nothing to hold me back
No one is gonna burst these dreams
No words to describe this secret I found
Except it all begins with me

Each minute I save (it begins with me)
Each change I make (it begins with me)
Each mountain I climb (it begins with me)
The first step I'll take, it begins with me (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Now there nothing to hold me back
No one is gonna burst these dreams
No words to describe this secret I found
Except it all begins with me

Each minute I save (it begins with me)
Each change I make (it begins with me)
Each mountain I climb (it begins with me)
The first step I'll take, it begins with me

(it begins with me)
(it begins with me) oh-woh
Each mountain I climb (it begins with me)
The first step I'll take, it begins with me (oh-woh)
It begins with me

:)

Learnings from a Negative Exposure

2008-08-07T02:05:14Z

Background: I went into overtime together with my Asst. Quality Assurance Lead/Peer Reviewer, Project Lead, Section Manager, 1 HW Quality Assistance Person, and Group Manager. The reason is that my block's DV Report deadline was yesterday, and yet I'm still doing tasks related to it. The company recently announced a "No Overtime" Policy for this month, yet we still finished at around 8:15PM.

I know these people are fuming in anger yesterday for not releasing the deliverable on-time, yet they understand the situation. I admire them because of the sacrifice they did just to be able to finish even the draft of the deliverable and promise to pass a new one next Thursday. I also admire my Project Manager because even though we are undergoing that situation, he's still calm and patient about it. He even tasked one person to help me in the report.

I understand that I am the source of the matter for this to happen. I failed to do my responsibilities during the times when the task was still light (3 weeks before deadline). Still, I accept my fate no matter what happens, but promise to improve next time.

What I learned:
1. Never take technical tasks too lightly. Responsibility starts the time you accepted the block until it was done.
2. If you see some things that are not common, consult your PM/PL.
3. Report status reports with integrity and honesty. If there's something negative going on, it's okay. Just explain to them what happened. DON'T LET ANY STRESS OR PROCRASTINATION GET IN THE WAY OF REPORTING YOUR STATUS CORRECTLY!
4. Never procrastinate. Apply the Pareto Principle correctly:
Current: People do OT because they spent 80% of the time doing 20% of their tasks that's why when crunch time comes, that 20% (OT time) is the time you spent doing 80% of the tasks.
New principle: Successful people spend 20% of the time doing 80% of the tasks, so that they can have the luxury to spend 80% of the time doing 20% of the tasks.
5. If I want to go into my business early, DO WHAT IT TAKES TO WAKE UP EARLY! Even if you've slept very late, I still need to wake up at this time.
Starting tomorrow, I promise to wake-up at around 5:45 - 6:15, weekdays and weekends. To do this, discipline is really needed.
6. Do 8 hours of work with efficiency. Spend the exact time you have during break time to do productive things outside work.

All I can do is accept what happened, take this exposure as reference for future endeavors, promise to the people I've caused hurt to not let this happen again, and move on. For it is during moments of pain when people learn a lot about life.

Lessons from the Weekend Bootcamp

2008-08-05T16:22:49Z

1. I am God's child. He has given me permission to serve and lead people.
2. The power of teamwork. If everyone commits and focuses to a common goal, the goal can be easily achieved.
3. Trusting your leaders. Leaders always takes care of his/her people. He/She won't put you into harm... ever.
4. Trust. When Person A puts his trust into Person B, Person A will gain confidence in Person B's expertise.
5. The power of duplication. Setting an example to your people has an impact on them. If you'll do what it takes to become successful and demonstrated it to them, they will also duplicate it.
6. Leadership. Leadership is a journey that has success as its goal. It is essential in moving your business forward.
7. Winning. Everyone has lots of goals, but in order to accomplish your goal, you must let others win their goals as well by helping them. Sometimes, you need to lose to win.
8. Fun. Fun generates positive energy, which allows you to do more.
9. Punctuality. You don't want to become hungry because you missed the first thirty (30) minutes of mealtime.
10.Courage (from Genting). Doing what you're supposed to do even if fear sets in.

My 100 Goals (Initial List)

2008-07-27T16:41:57Z

After watching "The Power of Clarity", the first part of "The Success Formula" movie series, I have decided to list down 100 goals that I want to achieve. The purpose of listing them down is to have a clear "Why" I'm living in this world. Also, I want to make sure that I have a direction to take and I know where I'm going to. It's much like similar to a yacht, a map, and wind. The yacht is "us", navigating the vast waters. The map serves as a guide to determine where we are and where we want to go (or our goals in life). If we don't have a map, we won't know where the wind will blow us. That's why making goals is important.

However, goals are not necessarily fixed. They can change from time to time, according to what you want to achieve, since it is your life, not anybody else's. Also, it will be better if you write it or visualize it through images.

After making these goals, I will find images to associate my goals and place them on a dream book. Also, if you see an entry that is bold, it means that I've already got that dream/goal.

Here is my initial list for my 100 goals (or part of them):

-=== Personal ===-
01. A new home for my current family in Imus, Cavite. It has 2 floors. The first floor will compose of a spacious living room, a warm dining room, and an entertainment room. The second floor will contain all bedrooms, one for each of us (we are three siblings) and one for the master's bedroom. Each bedroom is customized according to one's values and attitudes.
02. A home for my future family. It is situated near a beach and is probably located in the US or Europe. It has 3 floors. The first floor will consist of a big living room, a nice and cozy dining room and kitchen, an entertainment room filled with DVDs and CDs of local, foreign, and inspirational movies and audio and having a 50" widescreen TV and 6.1 surround sound, a library full of my favorite genre. On the second floor, there will be three children's bedrooms and one master bedroom. The children's bedroom will also be designed according to their values and attitudes. The master's bedroom will be simple yet elegant and sensual. On the third floor is an attic and some guest rooms. Outside the house, there is a basketball court, a swimming pool (until 6 feet), and a garden full of flowers.
03. A significant other that is very beautiful, God-fearing, responsible, loving to her family, fun-loving, nurturing, understanding, patient, and persevering. She is also supportive to me in everything that I do, yet she will also counsel me whenever I need great advices.
04. A 4-story library (open for all) situated in Makati CBD area.
05. A Honda Civic 2008 Hybrid Car.
06. Sponsor at least one scholar from elementary until college.
07. Be in a talk show as a guest for success stories.
08. Speak in front of people about financial awareness and education.
09. A beach wedding (either in El Nido or Amanpulo).

-=== Business ===-
10. Become a team elite executive by December 2009.
11. Make at least fifteen (15) people improve their lives because of my NSE-PHX business. Also, help these people make other people improve their lives.
12. Attend every incentive trip and convention that the company provides, all-expense paid by the company and have at least one family member be in the trip.

-=== Travel ===-
13. Go to Palawan (El Nido, St. Paul Underground River, Amanpulo, Tubbataha Reef).
14. Go to Baguio, Laoag, Vigan, and Batanes.
15. Go to Cebu, Bohol, Iloilo, Aklan.
16. Go to Boracay, Puerto Galera, and other similar places.
17. Go to Japan (Tokyo, Osaka, Kyoto), China (Beijing, Shanghai, HK, Macau), and Korea.
18. Go to any SE Asia Country (Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia, Brunei, Thailand, Vietnam)
19. Have at least one month tour in Europe.
20. Go to US and Canada (and visit relatives in Ontario).
21. Go to Brazil.
22. Go to Rome and Vatican.
23. Go to Australia (and visit relatives).
24. Visit the Seven Old Wonders of the World (Ruins can be okay).
25. Visit North and South Pole.

-=== Activities ===-
26. Ride on an exclusive cruise with five-star service.
27. Do snowboarding.
28. Plant trees in areas that need to be reforested (ie: jungles and forests) both here and abroad.
29. Do scuba-diving.
30. Do skydiving.
31. Do bungee jumping.
32. Space travel.
33. Participate in a World Youth Day.

-=== People ===-
34. Meet Oprah Winfrey.
35. Meet J.K. Rowling.
36. Meet Angel Locsin.
37. Meet Henry Sy, Lucio Tan, Jaime Zobel de Ayala, and other local business tycoons.
38. Meet Robert Kiyosaki, Donald Trump, Richard Branson, Warren Buffett, and other international business tycoons.
39. Meet Blake Roney, Sandie Tillotson, and Steve Lund, founders of NSE/PHX.

-=== Sports ===-
40. Watch a live ADMU-DLSU game.
41. Watch a live NBA game.
42. Watch a live MLB game.
43. Watch a live golf game with Tiger Woods competing in that game.
44. Watch a live F1 Grand Prix.

-=== Others ===-
45. A digital camera
46. Discover something in Number Theory in which I will be the author of that.

(To be continued...)

Singapore-Malaysia Trip Experience

2008-07-26T18:06:21Z

It's been 2 weeks since the Singapore-Malaysia trip. And as I upload the pictures from the trip, I still can't forget the experience we had for those seven days we had there (although some of my friends have stayed for an extra day because I was only given five days of leave).

What I can say about the trip? The trip is very relaxing, very enjoying, very inspiring. All the effort we had put in (regardless if work or business), it really paved well! I remembered weeks before the trip started I have to render OT (even go for Saturday OT) just to make sure that everything will be well in my block.

We were really inspired during the convention (Friday-Saturday) because of the people who went there. Represented by six countries (Malaysia, Singapore, Philippines, Thailand, Brunei, Indonesia), the whole SEA regional convention was very outrageous but very inspiring and emotional as well. As speakers come in front and tell about their success stories and inspiring stories, we come to realize that people who are successful in our industry also do what we do, yet they persevere despite of the circumstance. Truly, the business is really life-changing for everyone who is doing it... for the better. Not a bad side-effect after all.

I'm looking forward for a bright future in my business for the next days. :)

Thank You Lord! =)

2008-07-23T14:54:24Z

Recently, I always feel good everytime I thank God for everything that happens in my life. From my family, my environment, the food that we eat, etc...

Even the events that happen in my life, the trips, the tasks being done (whether at work or at business), even the times when I arrive at the office before 10am even if I went out at the home really late, everything. Even when obstacles or hardships or problems arise, I'm still being thankful.

It's really, really good to be always grateful to Him in everything that happens in our life. For He is our source of everything. It generates goodness and creates positive and exciting energy to share to all of His Creation.

I also invite you to do the same thing. From the moment you wake up until you sleep. Just be thankful to Him for His blessings. :)

Malaysian Words I Learned

2008-07-15T17:03:11Z

Whew... after almost 2 years of last post in my blog (99 weeks to be exact), I come back to post again.

This time, I swear not to post any complains or rumblings anymore... for it destroys my financial mindset. :)

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When we went last week to Singapore-Malaysia (July 7-13) to attend a convention, I have learned a lot of Malaysian language and its counterpart. Luckily, the Malaysian language uses the alphabet (as compared to Nihonggo, which uses either Katakana or Hiragana):

(In Singapore):
Berhati-hati di ruang platform - Please mind the gap.

(In Malaysia):
Berhati - Care
Bil-Bil - Bills
Kereta Kabel - Cable Car
Keluar - Exit
Masuk - In
Pembayaran - Paying
Pintu - Door
Ruang - Gap
Surau - Prayer Room
Tolak - Push
Tarik - Pull
Tandas - Toilet
Teksi - Taxi

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(Seen in Singapore):
* Sign when pressing the button to cross the street.
"Press for Green Man"
* Sign at the entrance of the hostel "The Hive"
"No Trespassing. Violators will be shot and survivors will be shot again."

(Seen in Malaysia):
* In a Maybank commercial, to promote using the Maybank credit card to pay the bills.
"Pembayaran bil-bil"

Quotes...

2006-07-08T12:35:51Z

I got four quotes to share with you today.

1. From my officemate, who told me about my low self-esteem, and this quote came from a certain movie:

"If you shed your tears, the magpies will come and eat those tears, and they will be happy."

2. From the book Mr. Murder by Dean Koontz:

"Life is so damned disorderly, things just happen, and there doesn't seen any point to so much of what we go through. Sometimes it seems the world's a madhouse. Storytelling condenses life, gives it order. Stories have beginnings, middles, ends. And when a story's over, it meant something, by God, maybe not something complex, maybe what it had to say was simple, even naive, but there was meaning. And that gives us hope, it's a medicine."

3. From a text message from my special friend, who sent this to me already 2x:

"Life is pretty simple.
When ure asking 4 apples & life hands u lemons, make lemonade.
If ure on ur way out & it starts 2 rain, at least u don't hav 2 water d plants anymore.
It's a matter of seeing things in perspective. The benefits may not be immediate or obvious,
but u have 2 know this for sure:
There will be problems. There will be struggles.
Have faith. Enjoy life. Take it easy.
If today ure picking up d grapes, tomorrow ul b drinking d wine! :)"

4. From a convo from Carlo:

"Patience at perseverance lang yan paul"
"Dapat positive thinking paul! Dapat positive! Natutunan ko yan kay ********."

Thursday...

2006-07-06T14:54:43Z

Tonight, when I logged-in at YM, this is what I got from a single offline message.

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. So send this to all of your friends (and me). And then... Well, nothing will happen. Really. No dogs biting you or people dying. No miracles either. But you'd be spreading a nice message." - crazmarz (Trisha)

Oh well, reminds me of what should I been doing if I'm not spending time thinking very desperately about her or about my "side problems" in life.

Work-related: Next week, I'll be transferring to a new group, since they'll be needing additional help for their project. It's quite sad because I'll be leaving the group that, even if they are hard teasers, they're very much fun to work with... from the PL to the groupmates. But I'll not be over with them since I have some maintenance tasks to work on. :)

Family-related: Time to spend good and quality time for my family this weekend. Wonder what I'll be doing. :)

Personal: Still troubled with some "side problems", but on the process of repairing each of them. Hope all goes well as time passes. Will go to the hospital this Saturday to have my Ultrasound... If you're thinking that, sorry... it's confirmed... hehehe... Just kidding. I'll have my KUB (Kidney-Ureter-Bladder) Ultrasound to check if I have Hematuria (urine w/ blood) or not, even if the blood that goes into my urine is very microscopic. :)

Special friend-related: We're both on our own. But we still manage to talk anything, especially while going home. Unluckily, I was able to go with her only yesterday, due to the OTs that I have done the past few days (and today also). :)

Emotionally: I'm drained, with what I've been experiencing during the week (I even cried one night wondering...)

Mentally: Mentally-derailed. Hehehe... ;)

That's all I have to say for now. Time to rest, since I need to go to the office early to read something before the discussion. :)

f6oekqu @ 2006-06-28T22:04:00

2006-06-28T14:26:47Z

Ang bilis ng araw, a. Sa bagay, maraming ginawa ngayon sa office. Trying to stuff things while coping up to the group and to the environment. Ilang araw na lang, 8 months na kami sa ci-tech. Sa ngayon, may dalawang tasks ako na ginagawa maliban pa sa isa sa mga committee members ng anniv. party ng office.

Sa ngayon, galing ako ng Our Lady of Pentecost Church sa may Varsity Hills Subd. Napa-treat ako bigla sa dalawa kong kasama, pero busog naman kami. Sisig + Pinakbet + 2 1/2 rice! Considering na kakain pa ako nito sa bahay... hehehe.. :-D

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Still on the realization phase and "trying-to-move-on-pero-mahirap" part (kasi mahirap, pero salamat pa rin sa mga advices. :D, and still, I treat her as someone special), there are still things, weird things of mine, that needs to be fixed. Medyo may "communication difficulties" pa rin, pero kapag in groups. Kapag kaming dalawa naman, we can relate to each other. Weird, but that's the truth.

Kami? Well, asides sa mga everyday meetings namin, nag-tetext kami tuwing morning, evening, at weekends. Pero try ko na rin ilimit ang sarili ko, lalo na sa mga calls. Mga 40-45mins on the average sa cellphone ang usap namin, kaya no wonder nag-skyrocket ang bill ko last month. Hehehe.. :D Mas ok na rin na malimit, para hindi lumabas na lagi akong nangungulit sa kanya...

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Napapaisip na tuloy ako ngayon kung ako'y magtatry mag-apply sa ibang companies or itutuloy yung "2-year" personal bond ko sa ci-tech. Siguro in a way parang ayaw ko na rin ng ginagawa ko, i-add mo pa dun ang mga groupmates mo nan kulang na lang magtulong-tulong sila para asarin ka. That's what's happening to me right now. Problem is that hindi man lang ako maka-retalliate sa kanila. Sa sobrang kabaitan ko, masyado ko namang nilolower-down ang sarili ko sa mga kasamahan ko... Effect: Low Morale. Kaya tuloy nasabihan ako ni Alvin na nag-iba na raw ako... tsk tsk... Why does it have to end up like this? :(

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On the brighter side, pagdating ng sweldo, time to start my future. I'll put 10k under time deposit, siguro mga 2 months lang muna. Tapos after that, add ako ng konti tapos 2 months uli. Paulit-ulit lang. Mas okay na rin yan. Para hindi ako masyado magastos. Medyo hindi ako thrifty kapag nandyan ang pera at accessible. Hehehe.. :)

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Nakuha ko na ang isa sa mga wishlists ko (Passage CD). Two more to go, with one coming on the 18th. Thanks AR! :D

...

2006-06-26T14:11:17Z

Change... is inevitable. Everybody changes...

But if that change will make the worst out of you, fix it till you can... while you still have time...

Or it will eat you up... and regret every single time you've wasted doing nothing.

:)

10 "random" realizations

2006-06-23T15:13:13Z

Here are my realizations for the past work week. :)

1. As what Alvin always says kahit indirectly may patama sa akin:
"Everything in moderation."

2. Kailangan ko lang ng isang tao para ma-jump start ang kakulitan ko.

3. Enjoy life and don't worry too much on one thing. There are other things to be taken care of.

4. Just let things flow... kahit na masakit... kahit na mahirap tanggapin... but if that's reality smacking right in your face, deal with it.

5. Mahirap maging in-charge sa isang 15th year anniv. party committee lalo na't kung ang mga tagapanuri ay inaayawan lahat ng themes na sinuggest niyo at 5 weeks na lang ang kailangan bago ang big event.

6. Magtipid. Kasi you'll never know... baka kailanganin mo ang iyong natatagong kaban. Wag masyado maging galante sa ibang tao.

7. As what someone has said in her comment:
"Hindi ka ba napapagod na tinatake for granted ka?"

8. Don't be indecisive. Stick to your decisions. Brittle ka kapag pabago-bago ka ng desisyon.

9. Kapag may bonus, don't expect na lalabas kaagad siya na parang normal salary. Hintay ka lang that night or the day after. Mapagtitripan ka lang pag nakita ka na nag-checheck ng bonus sa iyong ATM card.

10. As what Megxie has said:
"Say sorry. That's enough. Don't overanalyze."

Happy weekend!! :D

//edit
Wishlist: CD ng Passage, "The Farsala Trilogy II: The Rise of a Hero", and "Dragon Prince II: The Star Scroll"

Bad Things Pile Up One After Another

2006-06-21T13:35:20Z

At dahil sa mga nangyayari... hindi na maiwasang mag-pile-up sa kasablayan... :(

Kahapon, umalis ako kaagad dahil wala na akong ginagawa... samantalang siya, may video conference nung gabi. Di ko lang sure kung hanggang anong oras. Sumabay na ako kina Alvin paalis kasi wala na rin akong ginagawa sa office. Pero tinext ko naman siya sa kanyang cellphone bago kami umalis papuntang SM Megamall. Naging masaya naman kasi mission successful naman si Alvin dun at may instant Wendy's Value Salad pa akong treat. :)

Pagdating ko kaninang umaga, may message sa akin ang ka-group niya... hinahanap pala niya ako kagabi. Sabay kasi kaming umuuwi dahil iisa lang ang way namin. So naging "dismissal" (kasi uwian, hehehe..) buddy ko na rin siya. Nainis tuloy sa akin. Nanlumo ako nang husto matapos kong basahin yun.

Eto ang problema kapag ang cellphone mo na may camera ay hindi mo mapasok sa loob ng office. Pero may other ways naman para masabi ko sa kanya na nauna na ako.

Weird... effect pa rin ng mga nangyayari sa amin recently. At mahirap pa ring matanggap na ganun ang ikinikilos niya sa akin.:(

Pero sinabi ko sa kanya kanina bago kami mag-part ways: Hinding-hindi ko na uulitin yun. Sabay hingi ng kapatawaran sa kanya.

Moral of the story: Wag basta-basta aalis hangga't hindi ka nagpapaalam ng maayos. :(
2nd Moral of the story: Stop tormenting yourself dahil walang patutunguhan yun. Be friends. :)

Let Go or Hold On

2006-06-19T15:18:32Z

Let go or hold on...

That's the question that is still on my head for quite some time now... And it's tormenting me so much.

Right now, we both know kung hanggang saan ang limitations namin... being friends... para raw mabalik ang dati (happy moments) according to one of her texts last april. Kaso, more than friends pa rin ang tingin ko sa kanya, pero wala pang balak manligaw uli dahil kailangan ko munang ayusin ang aking pag-uugali lalo na towards her. I cleared that to her last time. Pero recently, bigla siyang umiiwas sa akin... not her usual self kapag kami ang magkasama. Siguro dahil tingin niya na sa tuwing nagiging close kami sa isa't-isa, parang tinatake advantage ko yun para magkabalikan kami. Kaya dahil sa mga nangyayari, lalo lang akong nalulungkot at hinahanap palagi siya. :(

Actually, simple lang siya kung tutuusin. Kung hindi na kayo, why bother? Just find another! Kaso, hindi ganun e. I think what she is to me is someone very close to my ideal girl. Wala na ata akong hahanapin pang iba sa kanya (inside and outside). Kaya hindi ako maka-move on or hindi makapamili pa ng iba. My mind and heart is stuck to her (grabe... obsessiveness na 'to!). :(

If I let go, maybe I can find someone better than her. Pero sayang naman kung ma-pursue ko uli ang isang taong very dear and special sa akin ever since na nagsimula kami sa office...

If I hold on, lalo lang akong masasaktan sa kanya. Baka pati ibang aspects ng buhay ko ay maapektuhan dahil sa depression.

Hindi ko naman pinagsisisihan na nanligaw ako sa kanya dahil talaga namang gusto ko siya, pero kung kaya ko lang maibalik ang dati at i-hold back ang feelings ko for her, siguro maganda pa rin ang relationship namin 'til now. It's just that my attitude becomes worse if I am in-love with someone (which is very, very awkward... :( )

Well, I'll just hold to what Chrislynn has told me sometime last month:
"Just continue to hope, but expect the coming storms ahead."

A Quote from "The Alchemist"

2006-06-11T13:32:55Z

"Even though I complain sometimes, it's because I'm the heart of a person, and people's hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don't deserve them, or they'll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren't, or treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly."

- Santiago's heart

Timeless

2006-05-01T12:11:54Z

Galing sa CD ng Timeless ni Sergio Mendes... Medyo jazz pero maganda yung sense... swak sa akin. :)

Timeless

(Sergio Mendes / India.Arie)

Kindness is timeless
Love is so easy to give
It just takes a moment
To show somebody that you care x2

In the world that we live in
Everybody wants to be so cruel
To be in the in-crowd
Got the hottest clothes,
The hottest shoes
We're reading the tabloids
And we're flossing in the club
But the freshest thing you can do is
Give someone your love

Kindness is timeless
Love is so easy to give
It just takes a moment
To show somebody you care

Kindness is timeless
Love is so easy to give
It just takes a moment to...

Give someone your love
To give someone your lalala love
To give someone your love
Give someone your love
Your lalalala love
Give someone your lalala love

The clothes that your wearing
It will one day be out of style
The car that your driving
One day will vax out in miles
Your hair and your makeup
And the time that it takes up
It will take the same care of
Ya give someone ya love

Kindness is timeless
Love is so easy to give
It just takes a moment
To show somebody you care
Kindness is timeless
Love is so easy to give
It just takes a moment to...

To give someone your love
To give someone your lalala love
To give someone your love
Give someone your love
Your lalalala love
Give someone your lalala love

Give someone you love

Cause kindness is timeless

Keep on Fighting... keep on believing... :)

2006-04-27T14:32:30Z

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Again... it's been a while... medyo matagal na rin ako hindi nakakapag-update... masyado kasing busy... sa lahat ng bagay... :)

Sa ngayon... what can I say to myself? Just keep on believing... don't lose hope... even though the panic button has already been pressed... Be strong... :)

<Self-motivation... as to the problems I'm facing right now. To those who know about the story... you know what I mean and feel right now... I know you would blame me for what I've done...>

Saka na muna ang kwentong ito... magrereflect na lang muna ako sa bahay... when I have time, I'll start telling the story. :)

After 2 weeks...

2005-11-28T08:24:23Z

Hmmm... Been a while again after updating my journal since last post. Have been very busy recently, especially that the training in Canon is very fast-paced. Right now, all electronics notes (NETANAL, BASELEC, DIGITAL) are again fresh in my mind. We had our exam last Thursday, and it was very hard. I hope that I somehow managed to get the right answers, especially on the last part. :)

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Right now, I'm in Joe's house in Cainta... doing something. Alam niyo naman... kung nasaan ako, hindi pwedeng wala akong ginagawa... :D

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Last Saturday, Denden (one of the DLSU summer campers and one of our friends as well) treated us at Kitchen in Greenbelt 3. Although the call time was 730pm, I arrived at around 745pm. It was her advanced debut, since she was not permited to have a formal debut for some reason. Pen, Ejay, Francis, RJ, Nina (also one of the campers), and Carlo also went there, along with Denden's high school friends. We were on a separate table. It was some kind of a reunion for Pen, Carlo, and I. Pen has his work at Globe and Carlo was nearing to become a professor either at DLSU - Manila or DLSU - Canlubang.

Carlo stayed there until around 9pm, since he was going to Sheila's party. (Belated happy birthday, Sheila! I know you had a great time at your party.) At around 11pm, we left Kitchen and went for Fuzion upstairs. At 12am, Nina bid farewell to us since she can only stay until 12am. At that time, I also wanted to go home since I'm very, very sleepy (Had 3 hours of sleep earlier). However, my dad called me that I should not go home and stay somewhere until morning because of a riot occuring just outside our house. As a result, we stayed at Greenbelt the whole morning (12am-530am). We stayed at Timezone (until 1230am), Seattle's Best (until 3am (and Francis treated us, yipeee!!!)), and Starbucks (until 530am).

At Seattle's Best, we saw Sally walking outside with a girl. Although Pen and RJ saw Sally, they told me to go outside and meet her. Outside, Sally was walking along with a girl. I met Sally outside and told her if she could go at Seattle's Best to meet with the other guys. She agreed. Then, she introduced me to the girl she's accompanying with. I don't know if this is due to my little sleep that day that suddenly, I shook hands with the girl (I forgot her name). I don't usually do that whenever I meet new acquaintances. Well, maybe because she's cute. :D

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No work for today... another day awaits tomorrow... and also is our exercises. And, I again forgot to order food last Friday... tsk tsk... Hmmm... what shall I eat for lunch? Noodles? Chicken Steak? :(

First Week at Canon

2005-11-12T06:03:30Z

It's been four days since hindi ako nakapag-update ng LJ. Kahit naman kasi may net sa Canon before or after ng work, hindi ako makapag-internet kasi sumasama na rin ako sa mga kasama ko pauwi. :)

Ang aming work hours: 830 - 530. Sa ngayon, hirap pa rin akong gumising ng maaga... hindi kasi ako sanay na gumising ng 6am. Pero ok lang... masasanay rin naman. Kaya rin kailangang umalis ng maaga kasi ang haba ng pila sa Taft Station ng MRT... umaabot pa nga minsan hanggang sa may hagdan or sa may entrance pa lang. Buti na lang, nagtitinda na uli sila ng stored value ticket. Kaya: 1) Good-bye long lines; at 2) Laging halos libre ang magiging huling gamit ko sa MRT (2 pesos). Aabot yun ng 4 days kung Taft-Araneta ako na uwian. Achievement na rin: Hindi pa ako na-lalate! Hehehehe... :)

Anyways, medyo heavily bonded na kaming mga batchmates. Sabay-sabay na nakikinig sa mga lectures (kahit na may mga hindi maiiwasang lecturers na sobrang boring), sabay-sabay kumain, sabay-sabay umuwi. Although may iba na hindi namin nakakasabay, majority sa aming 14 ang madalas magkakasama.

During the week, pinaghiwalay na kaming 14 (7 HEs, 7SEs) para pumunta sa kani-kaniyang workplace. Sama-sama lahat ng SEs sa isang area at lahat ng HEs sa isa pang area. Mga 2 rows and 1 column ang pagitan namin sa kanila. Sa area, sinasabihan ko yung mga kasama namin (other than Alvin, Gerome, at Dennis) na tiyak na medyo maingay ang place namin. Kay Alvin pa lang, sulit na kami. Hehehhehehe... :D

Sa area namin, back-to-back ang arrangement namin. Since odd ang number namin, may isa na medyo wala siyang katabi sa likod na batchmate (it turns out na ako yun). Pero ok lang, kasi may katabi kaming 2 HE people na gumagawa ng isang project for 2 months. Nung una nga raw, nalulungkot sila kasi para raw silang outcast... pero ngayon ok na kasi may kasama na raw sila. Sina Kuya JB at Kuya Iking yung kasama namin. Si Kuya Iking, isang taga-La Salle na thesismate ng isa naming kasama. Makukulit pero mababait naman sila kaya hindi mahirap pakisamahan. :)

Nitong linggo rin, natanggap na namin ang mga computers, mobile cabinet, table, at moving chair na naka-assign sa amin. Nung una, nagagamit pa namin yung computer kasi Windows XP, tapos walang password (bago lahat ng units). Ginamit namin yun pang-aral ng mga slides na ni-lecture sa amin. Pero after two days, ininstallan na nila ng Linux. Yung kasi ang madalas na ginagamit na OS sa H/W.

Bago matapos ang araw / linggo, binigyan kami ng exam about sa technologies ng Canon. Multiple choice, pero sobrang hirap. Wala ngang sense yung ginawa kong notes kasi karamihan sa lumitaw, nasa bandang subtopics, e hindi ko gaanong kinopya yung mga subtopics. Pero sana ok naman yung result. Hindi ko kasi sigurado kung may bearing siya pagdating sa evaluation interview, e. :(

Sa pag-uwi naman, marami na akong naging kasabay sa pagsakay hanggang Cubao. Kasi halos lahat kami (except Alvin, sa kabila siya sumasakay) ay papuntang Cubao. Minsan, kasabay ko si Dennis hanggang Taft Rotonda. Pero madalas, kasabay ko si Girlie (taga-MAPUA na kasama kong new employee). Madalas kasi, kasama ni Dennis sina Gerome at Alvin dahil naglalaro pa sila ng DOTA pag-uwi sa may Eastwood. So, instead na 3 kami, 2 na lang kaming nagkakasabay pauwi. Yung iba pa naming kasama, either LRT2 na, or may isa pang jeep after.

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CCS Week na next week. Pupunta kaya ako sa PasiCATCHan? Na-move nga, e... instead of Thursday, naging Wednesday.

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Well, I had a lax week this week... Umpisa na ng paggiging HE next week dahil binigyan na kami ng notes para aralin. So lahat ng electronics courses ay mag-uumpisa na.

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Ngayon... nasa school ako... napadaan lang... punta ng library... may mga kukunin... hehehehe... :D

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Hindi na rin ako nakakapag-YM ng madalas. E wala rin kasi naman nun sa mga computers sa web area ng Canon, e... o baka hindi ko lang nagagamit... May namimiss tuloy ako na kausapin. :)

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Happy birthday kay Alvin tomorrow at sa nanay ko sa 15. :D

First Day at Canon and other stuff...

2005-11-07T13:14:13Z

My first day at work is okay. Hindi ako na-late (10 mins early ako)!!! Pero hindi pa rin ako sanay gumising ng maaga. Usually, nagigising ako ng around 7 or 8. Ngayon, kailangan kong magising ng 6 para lang makaabot sa Canon ng 8. E sabi, for the first two months, 830 ang start ng pasok namin. Kaya dapat, by 7 wala na ako sa bahay para umabot ako. Minsan, problema pa yung pila sa Taft-Rotonda sa MRT. Ang daming tao! Masama pa, wala silang tinitindang stored-value na card. Kaya ang gagawin ko, bibili na lang ako ng dalawang ticket. Isa papunta at isa pabalik. Hehehee... :D

Dami pala naming La Sallians sa Canon (ako, Dennis Ng, Alvin Abad, Gerome Ling, Kat Victoria, Stanley See, at Angeli Lao). Akala ko kaming dalawa lang ni Ng yung mga newbie na La Salle. Hehehe... Sa kabuuan, 14 kami na new staff.

Kanina, ang daming forms na kailangang i-fill-up (Canon Info Sheet, Canon Insurance Form, BPI Acct, Pag-ibig, TIN, Nippo Life). Medyo nahirapan akong ifill-up yun kasi medyo matagal na rin akong hindi nakakasulat ng mahabaan. Pero okie lang, at least umabot bago kami ipresent sa mga employees ng Canon nung Company Meeting nila. :)

Sa mga nangyari kanina, nararamdaman ko nang marami talagang ipapagawa sa amin pag nagsimula na yung training. Pero okie lang, basta kailangan lang prepared ka physically at mentally. :D

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Pero eto ang hindi ko makakalimutan na nangyari ngayong araw:

Kanina, nakita ko sa may receiving area yung sina Alvin, Kat, at iba pang bagong staff. Pumasok ako sa loob dahil medyo matagal ko na ring hindi nakikita sina Alvin at Kat. E tinawag ako ng guard kasi hindi pa ako nakakapag-login. So lumabas muna ako, nag-log, tapos kinausap yung isang employee na naghahanap ng dyaryo para mabalot yung gift niya sa Kris Kringle. Pagbalik ko sa receiving room, hindi ko napansin na nakasara pala yung pinto. E transparent yung pinto. Boom! Tumama ang ulo ko sa salamin. Malakas pa yung pagkakatama sa akin sa pinto. E since transparent yun, lahat ng nasa loob, nagtawanan! Nag-joke na nga lang ako na medyo inaantok pa ako kaya ganun... hehehehe... What a way to start the day! Yun nga lang, nakakahiya. :D

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Sayang, hindi ko sinulit yung 70 pesos na daily transpo allowance na alloted sa min. Base sa calculation, 59.50 lang umabot yung transpo ko. Pwede ko sana siyang dayain, as in lalagpas talaga ng 70. E ayoko... mahirap na at baka makarma pa... hehehehe... :D

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Eto, hindi ko pa to nasasabi sa mga parents ko, pero sobrang saludo ako sa tatay ko dahil sa pagtulong niya sa isang "abused child" at sa nanay ko dahil sa pagtatanggol sa tatay ko nung balak makipag-areglo yung mga magulang nung bata sa tatay ko. :)

Ang gusto kasing mangyari nung tatay nung bata, either:
1. Daanin na lang sa usapan para matapos na; or
2. Pumunta sa barangay hall para dun aregluhin.

E ayaw namang pumunta ni papa sa barangay kasi wala naman siyang ginawang masama. At saka medyo may pagka-bias kasi yung mga brgy officials. Kung sa presinto, ok lang raw kasi at least alam niyang fair ang magiging judgment dun. Ang hinihiling kasi nung tatay, wag raw makialam yung tatay ko sa pamilya ng may pamilya. E hindi naman nakialam yung tatay ko dun kasi sila (yung bata at yung lola niya) ang humingi ng tulong sa tatay ko nung sumakay sila sa sasakyan kung nasaan ang tatay ko nung panahong iyon.

Kaso, yung tatay nung bata, ang lakas magsalita. Tinatawag raw niya kaming "spy" kasi tinitiktikan raw namin sila. E hindi naman namin sila inii-spy kasi bago lang sila sa barangay namin. Ginamit niya yung term na "spy" kasi sabi raw nung biyenan niya (yung lola nung bata). Nung panahong iyon, kausap niya nanay ko. Sinabihan tuloy ng nanay ko na mga sira-ulo sila kasi bakit sila nagsasabi na nang-iispy kami e hindi naman totoo. Matapos ng medyo mainitang diskusyon, dumating na yung tatay ko galing sa palengke at tinatanong kung pwede raw ba siyang sumama sa barangay. Siyempre, hindi pumayag. Tapos mainitang pagtatalo na naman. Dumating na rin yung ina nung bata.... sabay sabi sa amin na mga sira-ulo raw kami. Lalong nagalit ang nanay ko, so lalong dinepensehan niya ang tatay ko. After mga ilang minuto, umalis na lang yung ama, pero parang binabantaan niya kami. Nangyari to kahapon.

Ayon sa kwento ng tatay ko, ang daming latay nung bata dahil sa bayolenteng paghataw sa kanya ng hanger ng mga magulang niya dahil siguro may hindi lang siya nasunod.

Di ko alam kung naayos na 'to. Sana maayos na, para tahimik na uli.

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Yippee!!! Ayos na naman uli ang PC sa bahay. Kailangan nga lang ireformat at ireinstall yung WinXP kasi naging corrupt na yung System na directory.

Ang kamalian nga lang na nagawa ko, hindi ko naback-up yung files sa C bago ako mag-reformat. Ayun, lahat ng nasa C drive, ubos.... :(

Buti hindi nagalit ang kapatid ko nung nalaman na na-delete ang karamihan ng files namin sa C. :)

At since maayos na ang PC, every night, mag-aaral ako ng Java at iba pang programming language para at least napapractice ko pa rin ang programming skills ko. Hindi naman kasi ako Software Engineering sa Canon, e. :)

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Congrats, Pen! Nasa Globe na siya ngayon. :D

Two Songs...

2005-11-03T09:45:23Z

Ito ang dalawang kantang gusto ko nito lang... :)

Heaven Must Be Missing An Angel

Tavares

Heaven must be missin' an angel
Missin' one angel, child, 'cause you're here with me right now
Your love is heavenly, baby
Heavenly to me, baby

Your kiss with tenderness
I want all I can get of your sexiness
Showers, your love comes in showers
And every hour of the hour
You let me feel your loving power

There's a rainbow over my shoulder (Ooh, ooh)
When you came, my cup runneth over
You gave me your heavenly love
And if one night you hear crying from above

It's 'cause heaven must be missin' an angel
Missin' one angel, child, 'cause you're here with me right now
Your love is heavenly, baby
Heavenly to me, baby

Ooh, heaven, heaven
Ooh, heaven, heaven
Ooh, heaven, heaven
Heaven, heaven

Ooh I'm captured by your spell (Ooh, ooh)
You're different, girl, I can tell (Oohoohooh)
When you're layin' on my pillow, baby
Above your pretty head, there's a halo, that's why I know

Heaven must be missin' an angel (Heaven)
Missin' on angel, child, 'cause you're here with me right now (Mmm ha)
Your love is heavenly, baby
Heavenly to me, baby (Ooh my sweet little angel)

Heaven (My pretty little angel)
Heaven (I love you, love you, love you, love you, love you, baby, say right now)
Heaven

Heaven (Ooh heaven)
Heaven, heaven (Must be missing an angel)
Heaven, heaven (Missing one angel, child, 'cause you're here with me right now)

Heaven, heaven (Oh, my heaven)
Heaven (Missin' an angel)
Heaven
Heaven

You must have slipped away along the Milky Way
It's 'cause (Your kiss) your kiss (Filled with tenderness)
You came C.O.D. on a moonbeam straight to me
Just like (Showers, showers, showers, showers) showers (Showers, showers, showers)
(Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)

Your heavenly power gets stronger by the hour
Heaven must be missin' an angel
I'm captured by your spell, oh, girl, can't you tell
Heaven (Heaven) must be missin' an angel

Heaven, heaven (Oohooh)
Heaven, heaven (Oohooh)
Heaven, heaven (Ooh)
Heaven, heaven (Ooh so-so good, so-so good, so-so good, baby, mmm)

It's just so good, so good, so good (Yeah)
It's just so good, so good, so good (I love the way you move, I love the way you groove)
It's just so good, so good, so good (Uh)
It's just so good, so good, so good (Just like heaven, oh, baby)
It's just so good, so good, so good (Heaven, yeah)

Heaven, heaven
Heaven, heaven (Ooh, my heaven)
Heaven, heaven (Ooh, your love is so good)
Heaven, heaven (Oh, baby, got to have my love, yeah)

Heaven, heaven (Need it bad, Lord, baby, yeah)
Heaven, heaven (I got to have my love, yeah)
Heaven, heaven

You Won't See Me Crying

Passage

Waited by the phone all day
Thinkin' that you'd call
But you never did, oh no
You are diff'rent from before
Now you made me insecure
Like you never did, oh no

Tell me it's not over now, will you?
So I won't be hangin' around
And you won't see me crying

Ooh, ooh

Oh, girl, you've got it wrong
You've been thinking all along
But I've really changed, oh babe
Love's been knockin' at your door
Do you hear it?
Do you really, really care?

Tell me it's not over now, will you?
So I won't be hangin' around
And you won't see me crying

Ooh, ooh

Take me into your sweet loving arms
Let's make love like we've never done before
Like we've never done before

Tell me it's not over now, will you?
So I won't be hangin' around
And you won't see me crying

Tell me it's not over now, will you?
Say you love me, say it loud
Say you want me, say it now
And you won't see me crying
Ooh, oh

You won't see me cry
You won't see me
You won't see me cry
You won't see me

You won't see me cry

You won't
You won't see me cry
You won't see me
You won't see me cry
You won't see me cry
Unless it's over
Girl, it's never over
Tell me, tell me when it's over
You won't have tears to cry
You won't...
You won't see me cry
You won't see me cry

4 Days and Counting...

2005-11-03T09:34:37Z

4 days to go...
- Mag-i-start na ako ng work sa Canon.
- Matatapos na ang bum days ko.
- Ipapalabas na ang "Jewel In The Palace" (7) at Panday (2).

Kay bilis nga naman ng araw... pero okay lang. Alam kong magiging challenging ang trabaho ko sa Canon, but I hope na makayanan ko yun at kahit papaano'y makapag-prosper... or maka-stay kahit at least 2 years... :D

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Nung undas, pumunta kami (ako, nanay ko, at dalawa kong kapatid) sa probinsya ng nanay ko sa Rizal. Sayang at hindi namin kasama ang tatay ko kasi kailangan bantayan yung bahay. Mahirap na... lalo na kung nakatira ka sa mga depressed areas. Lahat ng nasa paligid mo hindi pwede basta-basta pagkatiwalaan (dahil nanakawan na kami ng ilang mga kagamitan sa bahay).

Pagkarating namin sa bahay ng nanay namin sa Rizal, pinagtulungan naming ayusin yung dala naming bulaklak para sa puntod ng yumao naming lolo. Nakakapanibago lang kasi si Tito Puti (kapatid ng nanay ko) ay hindi na bumisita sa puntod. Sabi ng tita ko, epekto raw yun ng paggiging miyembro niya sa isang sekta. Kaya kami na lang ang pumunta sa puntod. Nakita uli namin yung mga kamag-anak namin na dumalaw rin dun. Naglaro pa nga kami ng "Word Scrabbler" pagtapos naming dasalan ang lolo namin at tirikan ng kandila. Masaya kasi at least every year nakikita namin yung mga kamag-anak namin sa mother's side. Well, pwede rin sana kaming pumunta sa puntod ng lolo at lola ko (father's side) sa Bicol, kaso sa taas ng pamasahe kaya can't afford. :(

Nakauwi na kami kahapon ng tanghali dahil nagpalipas muna kami ng gabi dun. Buti na lang at wala naman gaanong traffic pauwi. :)

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Nakakaalarma na ang mga nangyayari sa labas ng bahay. May "frat war" kasi na nagaganap ngayon na involved yung barangay namin at yung barangay sa kabila.

May nabalita nga na may isang nanay at isang batang babae ang pinatay nang nalaman lang na taga-Maricaban sila nung tinanong ng taga-kabila.

Kaya tuloy pinauuwi kami bigla ng maaga para hindi kami mapag-tripan kung sakaling may biglang magtanong sa amin kung taga-saan kami. Sa bagay... para sa kaligtasan rin namin yun. :)

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Yehey! Unti-unti nang umaalis ang perya sa labas ng bahay namin.

Makakatulog na rin kami ng maayos at maaga. Kailangan ko yun, a... lalo na't sa Libis ang workplace ko at required na pumasok kami ng 830 sa unang mga linggo namin sa Canon. :)

Yun nga lang, magiging madilim uli ang lalakarin ko pauwi. Di bale, may flashlight naman, e... hehehehe... ;)

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Matatapos na ang Sassy Girl: Chung-Hyang sa TV. :(

Bad trip naman... ang daming cuts! May kinuwento rin sa akin si Krissie tungkol sa pagpapalabas nun sa 7. Biruin mo, 5 episodes in 2 weeks! Pano mo mapagkakasya yun? Hinahabol nga siguro nila yung Jewel In The Palace... tsk tsk...

Anyways, kung sinuman ang may copy nun, pahiram! Hehehehe... :D

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NBA Season started last Tuesday (Nov. 1)... Ganun rin ang Fantasy NBA... :D

Time to play! :D

Plunging into the weekend

2005-10-28T13:01:22Z

It's not always true that time flies when you're having fun... sometimes, time flies when you worry about something. :)

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Right now, I'm studying Visual Basic. While studying, the nostalgia of my OJT days came into my mind... when I was in-charge of the software part (VB) of our project... when, after doing 180++ hours of work I got a salary of around 5K. Hehehehe... :D

Why do I study VB? I have a sideline right now while I'm not yet employed at Canon. I'm helping somebody for their thesis and they plan to use VB on their system. They hoped that we will be able to finish this sometime next week. :)

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Oh! So this will be the last weekend of October. This will be the weekend where people prepare to go for the province to visit their relatives (alive and dead).

Also, this weekend will be the preparation of a long vacation next week. :)

Unluckily for La Salle people who are currently enrolled, there will be classes on Nov. 2 and 3. I hope that they will enjoy their vacation and trip. :)

As for those who will having the long vacation, hope you have a nice one! :D

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Got this from kye_kestrel

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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What to do this weekend?

Since I neither have a phone at home, nor an internet connection, I'll just play something on Joe's laptop. I borrowed his laptop for the weekend (and he's very nice in doing so)... hehehehe... In lieu of my PC that is not working right now. :D